2/6/19 Fatigue

I overworked myself this week. I always forget the difficulty and the toll that having fatigue can have on ones life, as after all, we all just want to be normal and be able to play hard and work hard and party hard and so so so much more. I was hit like a train, slept 15 hours straight from going out for five hours, two or three times at night last week, with each a day or so apart from the previous outing. Crazy. One would think I am used to it as I study architecture and have to pull routine weekly all nighters, however, it seems that even after three weeks I had not fully recovered from the previous semester. This is the main problem that people with fatigue face. This crippling effect of not having the energy to do as much as others is also the key reason so many develop depression as they feel they are not able to keep up - so whats the point of trying! (I fortunately do not have depression but know many with it). This linch pin of time VS energy is the primary contributor to the capabilities of people with fatigue. We must balance these and try our best not to let this balancing act define who we are and our capabilities. Particularly in this modern world we have just as many opportunities as anyone else if we are willing to go get them, it'll just be a bunch harder for us or we will have to sacrifice more, maybe friendships or relationships for instance. Our achievements are purely limited to, 'how much we want to achieve, what we want to achieve'. For instance, look at cryptocurrency and how much young people have made off this new platform that wasn't around until really recently, or even youtube, there are now young millionaires from that whom achieved what they have just by doing what they love and attempting something. Goodness, you could even look at me if you wanted a more normal example, I am in my fourth year of an architectural degree. I didn't even think I'd make it through school let alone into University, particularly one of the best. Made even crazier as I attended Cornell University in the States for half a year. It wasn't easy, it never will be, but, it is achievable if you want it enough and are willing to sacrifice things to make it happen. It is all about priorities, what will you prioritise?

Lesson for the day - it is better to attend an event and be happy the whole time even for a short time, rather than not attend the event at all.